Do you guys ever have the thoughts that maybe you shouldn't be a writer?
I'm asking cause, as I write my novel for NanoWriMo (and my dream is to become a writer) and I look back at my work and really think, "Will anyone actually care about this?"
I know I should technically write for myself, but I like to share what I create with others, so naturally I want people to actually notice my work. Though, as I reread what I written, I can't feel like someone would want to care about this. Then the thoughts of self doubt creep to make me think I was not meant for this at all. That I'm nothing more than a shadow of what a writer should be.
I think I'm just rambling, but just I'm just genuinely asking.
I get that feeling all the time. I think most writers do, even the wildly successful ones. Self-doubt is an unfortunate part of any creative field. It's also a sign that you want to do better, to push yourself. If you're in the middle of the writing process, don't listen to those self-doubts. Just don't. Keep writing and writing until you're done.
Once you've finished the story (manuscript, play, whatever), then take a moment to think about what it is you're doubting. Is it just that you don't think you're a good enough writer to tell the story you've told? Because that's never true.
If you doubt that your character is likeable/relatable/interesting enough, examine why. The editing process is where sometimes your insecurities can help you improve.
Overall, though, don't give in to the feeling of 'not being good enough.' It's bullshit. You ARE good enough. And every time you write, you get better.
I seem to get constant encouragement that I could be good enough to publish if I just "did a little more" (though what that entails remains nebulously defined). Only in the past few months have I actually allowed myself to believe it and start sending stuff out for submission. Nothing but one rejection and no responses thus far, but I'm making a go of it at least (well, things are on pause for NaNo, obviously). I have a modestly popular website that I'm in the process of revamping for use as my own platform, but I feel really self conscious about the possibility of having my stuff out there for public consumption by the internet at large.
I'm at the querying point too. It's awful. All the waiting .
And as for the concerns about putting your original work on the internet for public consumption I get that feeling too. I've started to put stuff on my blog (recently started) that is original but not directly connected to my novel, but I don't know if that's the right direction. I'm considering putting up bits and pieces (like character bios, or short scenes that aren't in the book itself), but it scares me a bit.